Ever since a young age I had a feminine side. My mum use to say, you should have been a girl. Then when I started school, I board with my grand mother and my dads youngest sister, who was living at home, and were taking care of me having a bath at night before going to bed, also said you should have been a girl not a boy. Well life went on and the years pass uneventfully, had a family and two children, and my TG (transgender) side of course.
Then due to a changing South Africa, because of Apartheid, and instability, we came to Australia. I were invited too a show, The Lay Girls, that open a whole new world to me. I met and spend a night with one of the members, and leaned a lot more about the life and journey of a transgender person, and knew then that, it was the path for me.
I needed medical assistance, which prove to be very difficult, since general GP's has no idea, and twenty years later, nothing has changed, very few GP's is off any help.
Well I started oestrogen treatment, that give you breast development, but of cause you will never have the desired effect till you get rid of testosterone. That is what really make us male, or female.
I kept using oestrogen for years. Then I had a bad injury, and blood clot in my leg. Hundreds of blood test is done to control your medication, that did not had the effect it should have. Griffith University were advised and were doing there investigations, found that I had a rare genetic defect, and off cause your medical history, EA transgenderism. After this blood clot issue were resolved I had a letter from Griffith Uni to meet with a Professor from there medical faculty. The inter view went well, and there advice was to deal with the transgender issue, rather she than he/ she, cause of the high suicide rate amongst TG people in later life, not taking care of it. It was not good for me emotionally, or mentally to live my life as a he/she.
I went to see the Dr who is still treating me now, and she had over thirty five years experience in transgender issues. Soon enough I were on the right track. Oestrogen was fine, but with out reducing testosterone, you just don't have the change you desire.
Well with in a couple of weeks, life start to change rapidly, You knew within the first week that you are not male any more. All this other changes follow over a period of time, emotionally, physically, and mentally. I became a whole person not being he/she any more. Your body change to a female shape, every thing about you change, you become a much nicer person, more sensitive, and considerate, and lose the male aggressiveness. You just feel totally different.
Emotionally the change are out of this world, and still remain, still spend a lot of time crying.
Any how I informed my family that I have changed, and are living my life as a female, which they tried to ignore for years, until I announced it of course. The results are, I am on my own, except for my youngest daughter, who except me for who I am.
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Enjoyed reading this thankyou. I will give you some tips and hints next time we speak but overall very good. xxx Robyn
ReplyDeleteHey Shea, yes is an interesting story and one that has had its fare share of pain I bet. Even more so because you have taken a journey to the other land without even knowing for shore the final outcome. Must have been bewildering at times. Well lets hope that all the effort will pay off for happy times KC X
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